poetry 101 rehab: found

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she found that, as though broken

about everything beautiful, nothing mattered

as she looked, over the bridge

her young body, quivered

as she thought about attempting the leap

or showing him the door

wanting freedom, or imaginary rights

it was sad beyond belief

good, not ever had she imagined

regions of death, would

be found to break her

(for mara’s poetry 101 rehab – found)

*the words in italics are the last three words of the first ten of the longer stories included in the random house / vintage collection of the complete short stories by kafka*

project 365 mobile | mono | square | week 1

On Sunday, 14 June 2015, I launched my Project 365.

You can see all the images as they are posted to the mobile | mono | square album on my flickr account.

My plan, let’s see if I can stick to this, is to post a weekly update here each Sunday.

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roygbiv

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(the cook’s companion – the complete book of ingredients and recipes for the australian kitchen – stephanie alexander)

red cooked pig’s tripe with ginger (page 977)

orange sorbet with tokay (page 653)

yellow beans (page 140)

green papaya and peanut salad (page 986-7)

blue eye cutlets with cumin (page 459)

indian inspired spice paste for small birds (page 814)

violet oon’s chilli lobster (page 873)

(for wordpress weekly photo challenge – roy g biv)

(and for  lucile’s photo 101 rehab)

*shot right now with nikon d700 and nikkor 70-200mm f/4 lens at 145mm, ISO6400, f/4 and 1/125s, no edits, no indigo food in index* 

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dark | side | thursday | five

Do you need, desire or crave a new challenge?  Are you open to sharing your dark side?   Then read on.

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Do you have a dark side?

Or, think you may have one. Or indeed worry that you might have one. Or, for that matter, worry that you don’t and would like one? If so,  join me here each week for dark | side | thursday.

Over a period of 52 weeks, I am writing a story. A dark story that will unfold as the weeks pass. Each Thursday, at 13:00 UTC, I will post a new chapter. Each chapter will be exactly 500 words long, and will be accompanied by a photograph. You can catch up on the story so far by clicking here on dark | side | thursday

Share your dark side?

I invite you to join me either by writing your own dark story, week by week, or, if that is too much, by dropping by, now and then, perhaps when the mood suits you or, perhaps, when it doesn’t, and by sharing a photograph, poem or a suitably dark piece of prose. To cross over to dark | side | thursday create your post, tag it dark side thursday and link to it by clicking on the dark | side | thursday badge below, where you can also find all the contributions so far. Or you can simply share your link in the comments section of my weekly post. And, should the mood take you, you can add the badge to your post.

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dark | side | thursday | five

The door closed behind him.

The dark corridor stretching out ahead.

That damned box. The box that wanted him to press the button, slide his fingers inside, release the key, release it. That box now waited behind that door. Release, waited behind that door.

He could not think of that now.

He knew if he did, he would be lost. Again.

He walked on down the hall.

He felt the pain. In his arm. It hurt, as it always did. And the corridor narrowed. The ceiling, the walls, the floor, dark, shifting, coalescing. And the pain. Oh, that searing pain.

Dark, so dark. His chest tightened. Air, he needed air. He felt the walls closing tight around him. How could that be?

The sound of stone, stone slowly scraping over stone. The dull heavy thud. No light. No light. No light. Only dark remained.

His lips had touched hers. She kissed him back, wanting him, hungry for release. She felt his need, his fingers.

Then. Darkness. Again. Blue eyes twisted. Gone. Empty.

She could not breathe.

The pain twisting, growing inside her. His lips cold. She pulled away. The light gone again. The emptiness remained, engulfing.

He shivered as his eyes blinked open. He was not in the corridor. The air damp, musty. He could hear water flowing nearby. Flowing swiftly, darkly.

Light began to filter through the crooked, leafless, blackened branches of a tree. He struggled to remember where he had been, where he was.

The corridor. He had walked through the door, entered the dark corridor.

Which now appeared to be formed from the bark of a forest of ancient black trees.

He struggled to sit, the pain in his arm intensified, his breathing ragged. He sat with his back pressed hard against the rough bark, not caring about the scrapes he would suffer from later. Reaching into his pocket, he grasped the seductive slick metal of the flask. Unscrewing the cap, he pressed it to his lips and felt the harsh liquid burn down his throat.

She had pulled away. Could not face those empty, not blue, eyes for now. The pain in her belly gnawing and churning inside her. He had turned away from her. His eyes averted for now.

She walked, slowly at first, then began to run.

He did not follow. He had turned, those empty eyes watching as she ran.

She had tripped. Fallen. Her hands reaching out.

That was when she had seen the steps. Rough stone steps, descending in front of her. Cold and damp. The emptiness inside her churned again as she looked down the steps into the shifting darkness below.

The harsh jolt of the shot revived him a little.

He turned his head. The pain in his arm screaming and raging.

He bit hard into his lip, rose unsteadily to his feet.

At that moment, he saw them. Ahead of him, through the trees. Rough stone steps rising into the darkness.

Then, oh Hid. Then, he heard her.


The portal to dark | side | thursday opened on the twenty first day of may in the year twenty hundred and fifteen and will remain open for fifty two weeks.

five | fiftytwo

project 365 mobile | mono | square

starting today, project 365

mobile | mono | square

on flickr

with updates here from time to time

(inspired by project(s) 365 from amy and mara)

 

 

off season

“It’s big and it’s bland, full of tension and fear.
They do it over there but we don’t do it here.”
lyrics from “fashion” by david bowie

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off season

low season

unseason(able)

off season / in need

(for wordpress weekly photo challenge – off season)

*shot with nikon d700 and nikkor 70-200mm f/4 lens at 135mm, ISO200, 1/200s at f/7.1, second hand dreams*

dark | side | thursday | four

Do you need, desire or crave a new challenge?  Are you open to sharing your dark side?   Then read on.

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Do you have a dark side?

Or, think you may have one. Or indeed worry that you might have one. Or, for that matter, worry that you don’t and would like one? If so,  join me here each week for dark | side | thursday.

Over a period of 52 weeks, I am writing a story. A dark story that will unfold as the weeks pass. Each Thursday, at 13:00 UTC, I will post a new chapter. Each chapter will be exactly 500 words long, and will be accompanied by a photograph. You can catch up on the story so far by clicking here on dark | side | thursday


Share your dark side?

I invite you to join me either by writing your own dark story, week by week, or, if that is too much, by dropping by, now and then, perhaps when the mood suits you or, perhaps, when it doesn’t, and by sharing a photograph, poem or a suitably dark piece of prose. To cross over to dark | side | thursday create your post, tag it dark side thursday and link to it by clicking on the dark | side | thursday badge below, where you can also find all the contributions so far. Or you can simply share your link in the comments section of my weekly post. And, should the mood take you, you can add the badge to your post.

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dark | side | thursday | four

She saw.

Or she thought she saw.

The key felt alive in her fingers, vibrating.

His eyes. Those sparkling blue eyes. The eyes that made her melt, want him, need him, ache. There. Those eyes that took her. Made her. They had gone. The light at least had dimmed.

And, in that moment, those eyes grew dark, twisted, shifting.  And, empty.

Her breath would not come.  The hand holding the key cramped and pain shot up her arm. Cold tendrils of fear spread from the very centre of her. That empty place deep inside her. That place that would always be empty. Not that she knew that then. Oh no, then, even at that moment, she wanted, hoped, needed.

She dropped the key.

Looked away.

And, from the corner of her eye.

She saw.

He paused for a moment. Writing had once seemed so easy to him. Now it had become a bitter fight. He had to tell their story. His time was short. He knew that. His fingers ached and fought back. Again the cold seeped into his veins, his bones, his mind.

His eye strayed to that box.

He closed his eyes and, for a brief moment her emptiness spilled into his mind. Or what was left of it.

He stood. The rain pounded against the glass, the sky ripped by cold fire.

He turned. Reached for the bottle. Poured a little into the glass. He closed his eyes, tipped the harsh clear liquid down his throat and rasped those words again, “na zdraví”.

He remembered. All of it.

And he knew he had little time.

He touched the box. Felt it vibrate a little. Closed his eyes.  And, in the darkness, swirling, pulsating, he saw it. Not for the first time.

The day he had found the box he had gone there to learn. Walking among the dead. He had not imagined just how much he would learn, and how important that learning would become.

Turning back to the bottle, he took another shot, felt the burning liquid flare deep inside him. Sat down, picked up the pen. Laid it aside. He could not concentrate. He wanted to press the button again and release the key.

She saw.

From the corner of her eye.

And then it had passed. The shooting pain faded. She breathed in. The cold empty feeling deep in her belly remained, twisting and cramping.

His eyes were blue again. She ached. He bent down towards her, and as he did so, reached for the key, picked it up and held it out to her. She took it. He moved closer, her lips found his.

He knew he could not open the box this night.  He stood, walked to the door, looked back, paused, opened the door and walked out into the cold dark hall. The door closed behind him.

And, in that room, the box waited.

It knew he would return.

Knew he would press the button, slide his fingers inside.

It wanted.


The portal to dark | side | thursday opened on the twenty first day of may in the year twenty hundred and fifteen and will remain open for fifty two weeks.

four | fiftytwo

space | animal(s)

“in the space between chaos and shape there was another chance” 
 ― jeanette winterson

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space

not that much to ask is it

space to run

space to hunt and tear and devour

not that much to ask is it

space to leap

space to howl and eat red meat

not that much to ask is it

space

not this pink collar

not this cold kennel

not this,

space

(for tech of the month: focus on animals from lucile and perelincolors)
(also for laura’s literary lion. space.)

*shot with nikon d700, and nikkor 50mm f/1.4 lens at ISO200, 1/400s at f/10, edited in lightroom cc and analog efex pro, claws and pink collar optional*

vivid

                                     "all the robots descend from the bus" - daft punk is playing in my house, lcd soundsystem
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(city of london, window dressing)

(for wordpress weekly photo challenge – vivid)
*shot with nikon d700, nikkor 70-200mm f/4 lens at 200mm, ISO450, 1/125s and f/4, edited in lightroom cc and color efex pro 4, who’s playing in your house?*

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